Sooo. Uveitis. Still got it.

Let me tell you how weird the last few weeks have been. After taking entirely too much time off of work (it stressed me out to think about my operator running my shifts for me), I tried getting back into the swing of things, and it's been a bit of an adjustment. I have what my co-workers refer to as "shy eye," because whenever anyone starts talking about my eye, or I start thinking about it, or I start thinking about people looking at it or anticipating talking about it, it clamps shut and starts to water. Ridiculous. Here's some pictures of the eye in the beginning. Be careful though. You might get the shy eye when you look at them.


The eye is getting better. They gave me some steroids to take that made me cry all the time, but it improved my vision to the point where I can keep the eye open and am able to read SOME things (unfortunately, the tiny print on this screen is not one of them). In the beginning, it was like looking into the sun. Any light, and I really mean ANY light, was excruciatingly painful. It got so bad that I put boxes in the windows and hung sheets in front of the curtains to block out the light. Clay came home from work and found me not eating (the kitchen was too bright), sitting in the dark, watching Alice in Wonderland, with the windows all crazy rigged up, and he said it was like walking into the living room of a serial killer.


I've come a long way since then. I've been back to the eye doctor 4 times now. I've also given blood 3 times. THREE. The first time, they took 16 vials. (You remember, I turned pasty green and ate the lady's jelly beans?) The second time, they took one. (Whoops, forgot the HLA-B27 - whatever that is) Today, they took 6. And there still aren't really any definitive answers.

Here's what we DO know:

First round of blood tests = high ANA levels. These are "antinuclear antibodies" and it means that my body is fighting itself from the inside. Apparently, this is an indicator of Lupus or some other autoimmune disorder. It was the only test that came back positive, so I guess it's good that I don't have Lyme disease or AIDS. Sooooo... eye doctor referred me to a rheumatologist to see if I have Lupus.

Rheumatologist asked me a billion questions today.

• Do you have any lower back pain? Uhhh, no. And I lift 30-50lb boxes at work on a regular basis.
• Do you sometimes get red butterfly rashes on your face? If I go out in the sun without sunscreen, but that's typical for a ginger.
• Do your knees sometimes turn red in a lacy pattern? That sounds like crazy talk.
• Do your joints hurt? not at all.
• Do your fingers turn blue or purple when they get cold? I think I would have noticed that by now.

And the whole time he's asking me these questions, he's moving all my joints around like I'm a rag doll. Moving my wrists up and down. Pushing on the top middle part of my foot. Putting his thumbs on all my knuckles. Checking my nail beds for some weird word I don't remember. I also almost kicked him in the face when he grabbed my knees. I'm really stinkin ticklish.

But he had the same reaction that my eye doctor did. "Well, I'm gonna send you for some more blood work to rule out the scary stuff. But it really all may come back negative, since you're not showing any symptoms of anything really. Just the crazy eye." He also said that, instead of the ANA being an indicator of some disease that's causing my uveitis, the uveitis may be causing my ANA levels to be high? So I really may just be fine and my eye is deciding to eat itself from the inside like a pacman.

On a brighter note, we're almost completely moved out of campus housing and into the Ball's house! Tomorrow, we get the last of our things and turn in our keys. We feel completely blessed to have some amazing friends help us save some money over the summer by letting us stay with them until we head out to Scotland. I am enjoying having a friend to cook with, a dishwasher, and a puppy and toddler to play with, and a Roomba to scare me by cleaning randomly in the middle of the morning. Also, squirrels everywhere? Climbing on the windows and the porch?

Also, the husband has been great through the whole thing. Taking me to the doctor over and over again. Spending our days off in and out of the lab getting bloodwork done. Helping me feverishly pack up all of my random stuff that I've been hoarding collecting over the last 2 years in Crutcher. Making sure to hug me when we get back-billed by all of our doctors because Guidestone insurance pretends to pay for stuff and then tells you that you owe more money. He really is the best.

Let's continue to pray for my eye though, because I'm still wearing my bobo glasses from high school and I have to renew my passport. Who wants a picture of a crazy eye in their passport picture for the next ten years?? Not this girl.

Carm

Eyepocalypse 2013

Well... 

This post is going to have nothing to do with Scotland. It's going to recap the Eyepocalyse of 2013, as my loving husband calls it. Get ready for an awesome recap of the last week and a half.

Saturday: Woke up with a red eye. Not red enough to scare you, but red enough for all the kitchen ladies at my work to start calling me "Ojo Rojo," and ask me if I had been crying. A little sensitive to light, nothing crazy. Just a little twinge. 

Sunday: Went to church with a headache. Told our church about Scotland. Wrote a fun blog post. Got to hug every single person in church that day (Best. Day. Ever.) Tried not to think about my eye. 

Monday: Saw Jurassic Park in 3D. Probably a mistake, but it was there that I noticed my vision was a little crazy. By that night, my eye was throbbing. Couldn't sleep well. 

Tuesday: Got to work, couldn't see. My coworkers helped me laugh through two hours of wearing sunglasses, and my boss sent me home. Not really sure how I drove home, but I took the long way through City Park and pulled over 4 times to pray and donkey cry in people's driveways. Clay took me to a walk in clinic, and they said, "Well, darn, ya got pink eye!" and I said, "uhhh... I'm not showing the normal symptoms of pink eye. I've had it before, this doesn't feel like pink eye." and he said, "Blah blah blah, get this really expensive medicine, it will fix EVERYTHING."

Wednesday/Thursday: Went to work, not any better. Expensive honey-like eye drops not helping at all. Eye started to cloud over, to the point where I could only see shapes/colors. 

Friday: Clay took me back to the doctor. Doc took one look at my eye and said, "Ooh! Uveitis! You need to see an ophthalmologist right now! It's a matter of sight or blindneeeeeesssssss!" 

So begins my crazy day. Found the eye doctor at probably the biggest hospital complex on the planet (with one eye). Sat in the waiting room for 2 hours. The eye doctor put 15 eye drops in my eye and bombarded me with rapidfire questions (all while buzzing around the room on a rolley chair, putting random eye drops in and shining colored lights in my eye - just imagine. it was a circus.):

Have you been losing weight? (a little but not really)

Any recent bug bites? (no)

Any coughing? (well... a little)

AND EVERYTHING STOPPED.

Do you do any volunteer work? (uhhh... I work at Chick-fil-A?)

YOU NEED A CHEST X-RAAAAAYYYYYY!

You might have tuberculosis! It's a common cause of uveitis! You need to get it done immediately! Get these two eye drops and put them in your eyes! One's a steroid! One will dilate your eye! See you Monday.

Chest X-ray took 5 minutes. They sent me on my way, telling me the eye doctor would contact me with the results. 

That's really how it all went. Just as a side note. Clay had to go to work after taking me to the first doctor, and my boss, Tom, picked me up and took me everywhere I needed to go. He waited at the eye doctor for me and at the X-ray place, and then took me to Walgreens and home, before telling me not to worry about work until I got better. God put this man in my life for a reason, and if you say your prayers tonight, thank God for Tom Maloney. 

Soooo. Since this is already way too long. I'll recap. I don't have TB. My sister, the registered nurse, has never heard of uveitis. Thought I needed to rat her out. The eye has progressed a little. Went back to the eye doctor and they made me get bloodwork. Just to rule out the other common causes of uveitis (which are apparently Lyme disease, cancer, HIV, and some others). They took 16 vials of my blood, which was no fun, but I did get to eat the nurse's jelly beans because they didn't have anything else and apparently, I turned a lovely shade of pasty green. Blood work comes back later this week. I'm on a low dose of steroids, so don't make me mad. 

More to follow. Just wanted everyone to know so I don't have to spend years going through everything. And if you'd like a real picture of what my eye looked like, this was when I could finally open it myself.

 Hope this was as much fun for you to read as it was for me to live it. Actually, I don't. Because this was not fun. AT ALL.

Carm

Soooooooo. Scotland?

Clay has known for a while that he was a genius and wanted to study abroad. Having gotten two degrees from a Baptist seminary, he thought that it would be wise to diversify his education. I was thinking, "Yeah, we'll go to Baylor, we'll go to Emory, we'll go to Boston University."

Nope. SCOTLAND. 

God has really put things into motion for all of this to happen. He's brought people into our paths who have encouraged us through the whole process. You know, those fun things that God does? Where you're like, "Hey, God, is this really what you want me to do? I feel like it's not right." and then He's all, "Hey, I'm going to put you on a connecting flight to Atlanta and randomly sit you next to a guy who graduated from St. Andrews." That kind of thing. 

Oh yeah, and the acceptance letter. He's soooooo smart that he got accepted into the MLitt program, and we'll be doing that for a year and then moving on into PhD. 

I'm not going to lie. I am scared. SOOOOO scared. Like, watching the movie Scream in the 7th grade scared. Well, maybe not that scared. Maybe more like, I'm moving to a place I've never been before and I don't have much money and we are literally going to fly over there not knowing where we're going to live.

Buuuuut, it's going to be an adventure. 

Lots of questions. 
Where to live. (How will we find an apartment from the states?) 
Jobs. (Will they let me work in a bakery???) 
Transportation. (Little Yaris is going to the Turners... but how are we getting everything over there??) 
Finances. (Right now, $1=0.66 pounds) 
Tuition? (uhhhh... you don't even want to know what kind of nonsense it is going to cost us... AND SCOTTISH PEOPLE GO FOR FREE. blerg.)

We've already answered some questions though. We're living with some friends through the summer to save money. My boss and co-managers are helping me work more hours to make more money. We're giving our precious Bellatrix to some friends who are moving up north. We're keeping all of our summer clothes in the states because we won't need them. 

We also know some pretty cool things. This year, the University of St. Andrews is the 3rd oldest English-speaking University in the world, and is celebrating their 600th year. That means that people were studying in this castle school 80 years before Christopher Columbus got in his little boat and came over to this side of the world and found the continent where we currently live. 

Christopher Columbus:
1) looks like he smells a farty smell. 
2) has crazy eyes. 






I feel like this is the most random post. But I've been saving all these thoughts for months. Time for everyone to experience the crazy and live this with me! 

Carm